Back in August of 2012, a 7th century Monk named Saint Samuel (also known as Samuel of Kalamoun and Samuel the Confessor) came to me in my dream. Unbeknownst to me at the time, Samuel guided me (in my sleep) into my office to trance-type his mission, which he called "The Purification Process".
Still unbeknownst to me until my husband came into the office several hours later, I had been up for 2 hours. My husband said my eyes were closed and I was "like a statue sitting straight up with only my fingers moving". He said I did not move or acknowledge him or wasn't remotely phased by the dog's sudden barking. Then after another 20 minutes of him watching me type so robotically, I suddenly "snapped out of it". I was confused as I looked around the room and then down at myself as I realized that I was still in my pajamas. I had no recollection of how I ended up in the office.
While I could barely recall printing out the 12-page document that I had just finished trance-typing, I do recall handing it to my husband asking him to read it and let me know what it says. He asked, "Well, don't you know what it says?" I replied, "The only thing I know since going to bed last night was talking to a Monk in my sleep".
Keep in mind that, despite all of this religious background, I was still confused. I was not concerned that it happened, nor did it surprise me (because of situations like this), but I was confused as to why this Monk would pick me. In addition, my husband grew up in the Bible Belt of Texas so this was extra-strange and confusing for him.
So, after my husband read over the trance-typed document, he looked at me strangely and said, "These are not words I have ever heard you say". He said he didn't understand what exactly it was saying because the words word unusual. He handed it back to me and, while it was predominantly in Old English terminology and there were never words I ever spoke of, the content and message were very clear to me.
After several days of Samuel demanding I go into my art studio and paint his portrait, I did. I had been explaining to him each day that "I do not paint portraits". He was very gentle but very adamant about it. He said he would tell me to when to stop. So I created his portrait and noticed I spent an unusual amount of time obsessing on the creation of his right eye, as if it were deformed, otherwise damaged, or missing.
After the trance-typing and portrait were done, he disappeared. So about a week later, I contacted the St. Peter's Basilica of Vatican City. I emailed them a photo of my completed portrait of Samuel, with a brief explanation of how he and I "met". The return email stated,"Yes, we know who this is, he is known as Samuel the Confessor but was the Abbot (Head Monk) of the Monastery of Kalamun (Qalamoun)". Attached to the email was a "professional" portrait and some links to scholarly, credible information.
I was unsure of what Samuel wanted me to do for him other than the portrait and trance-typing so, when I happened to be at an event where a really good and locally-famous psychic-medium Christine Salter was, I sat down for a reading. She said, "There is a Monk by you who said you are confused by his presence". I briefly told her the above. She said, "When he was being beaten and tortured for his faith, you were a Monk with him but you were afraid to be killed. So, instead of helping him at that exact moment back then, you promised you would help him when you could. Now you can". Wow!
Per St. Peter's Basilica, Samuel was a considered a prophet by many. He explained to his followers: "Christians will adopt evil practices and lose interest in the things of God, distracted by the objects of their desire, and they will be desirous of eating and drinking, and desirous of pleasures more than the love of God... they will spend their time sitting in streets and market places, caring about the affairs of the world and without any interest at all in the church and they will pay no heed to their hearts..."
Currently, I am looking for the flash drive on which I have the 12 pages stored. I'm not sure what I am going to do with the information once I find it. But for now, all I tell you beyond-a-doubt is that the purpose of Samuel's "Purification Process" is to help others reclaim the inherent spiritual tools of the past before man pushed his dogma onto our society. Why now? Because his prophecy is well in motion. It's time.
By beliefs are not for everyone and that's great. It would be a dull world if we all agreed. However, just because we don't agree doesn't mean we have to be cruel or aggressive. Acceptance, not agreement, is what we should strive for.
I received my Ph.D. in Philosophy in 2009 but even as a teen, I was a student of various beliefs, a "seeker" of answers. I grew up in a Lutheran Church (Wisconsin Synod) and then later revolted. I am defiant by nature and just didn't like being force-fed organized religion. From ages 13 - 21, I studied all kinds of religions. I only stopped when I became a mom. But as a seeker, I just knew there had to be "more out there - more than this". During those years, I studied Scientology, Catholicism, Buddhism, Franciscan, Evangelism, Methodism, Pentecostal, Baptist, Rosicrucianism, Norse Mythology, and others.
While I found a lot of contradictions and differences, one thing they all shared was that each one had valid points which provoked very deep thoughts within. Since I was a child, I believed that animals have souls and they'll escort us to safety "on the other side". I believe everything has a deeper life - a soul of some kind - to it. For example, my cars always tell me their names. I know that sounds nuts but it's true. Trees have a deep personality and as I was going through decades of trauma as a youth and young adult, a raven and a willow tree got me through it all. So, digressing just a tad, when I was introduced to Ethics by Baruch Spinoza at the age of 15, I was pretty much hooked.
Even today, I agree with much of Spinoza. The part I differ on the most is that I full-heartedly believe in reincarnation and past lives. I have had (and still do have) too many experiences such as this one, that proves otherwise. I also spend a lot of time hosting "unseen visitors" in my home and always have. In fact, if they didn't visit, I would feel lost & unhappy. In turn, I fairly recently experienced a haunting image that called me to seek out a specific church in my area. When I answered the urgent push and went to the church, I received an annointing that literally saved my life.
So I walk a line - perhaps one could say that I straddle "Spinozism" and "Spiritualism" yet between the two is my love of Saints and the belief that everything (animate and inanimate) has some form of life or soul in them. In 2012, I had a Franciscan Monk visit me during my dream. You can read about that here.
So as you can see, my beliefs are very individualistic, and I believe yours should be as well. I believe the our "religion" (if you wish to call it that) does not need to exist in a brick & mortar building but instead, should exist all day, every day, in our hearts. It's a highly personal experience and that is why I don't understand why religion has always touted around acts of massive violence.
I do agree with Spinoza that the Bible was written (several times over) by man but that the Bible also helps people behave better. And while I feel churches bring people together in unison, I also see it divide people. Somewhere along the lines of history and social development, we seem to have forgotten how to think for ourselves and form our own conclusions. Especially in the USA I feel we as a society have force-fed a warped sense of reality into individuals thereby resulting in more unhappiness and confusion.
So, while I don't really have a label for my beliefs, I just lump it together and call myself a "Panpsychic Animistic Pantheist". Although, I want to make it very clear that under absolutely no circumstances do I ever, ever, EVER condone the "sacrifice" of an animal or human. In fact, I personally do not believe that any ethical group (call it religion if you wish) would ever approve or expect such a thing.
In fact, my advice is... if they do, run!